feeling bothered is a trap (when you don’t engage it, you don’t feel bothered).

Posted on Nov 16, 2012 in examples to show the mind that it is not You, traps | 0 comments

feeling bothered is a trap (when you don’t engage it, you don’t feel bothered).

You can’t trust feeling bothered because that feeling will tell you that the reason you are feeling bothered is because of what you are looking at (what you are thinking about), which is not true. This is why feeling bothered is a trap; it will try to get you to engage the mind when the answer it seeks is not of the mind. Feeling bothered will then have you try to get some thing or some one to change, while feeling bothered until something changes (and then continuing to feel bothered by something else). Instead of participating in that endless cycle of feeling bothered, recognize that the bothered feeling is simply an indication of not feeling right inside, and not feeling right inside is an indication of identifying with the mind and its mental concepts.  (The True Self doesn’t ever feel bothered.  It only feels the Perfection of ItSelf.)   If you feel like you need to test this out, try this: Imagine something that you feel bothered by. Now imagine not feeling bothered by it.   Which one feels better, more like You?   Notice that nothing “in the world” changed while you imagined both scenarios and yet you experienced a feeling change.   The mind’s likely conclusion from that example is to “be the change it seeks.”  (That conclusion is also a trap because the thing that feels like something needs to change is not You, is not Real, and will never be able to experience the Peace that You truly Are.) What this exercise is pointing out is that the bothered feeling is “relative”.  It is dependent on mental conditions.  If you don’t identify with those mental conditions, if you don’t treat them like they are real, or you, or yours, then they lose their seeming weight.   As your attention leaves the “relative” and rests as the Absolute, you can no longer even remember what feeling bothered felt like, because You are now experiencing the Sweet, Complete, Unbotherable, Bliss that is You.                ...

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the thing about gratitude…

Posted on Nov 4, 2012 in examples to show the mind that it is not You, traps | 0 comments

the thing about gratitude…

i used to do a gratitude practice of acknowledging things i was grateful for so that i could feel “good” and have more “good” in my life.* It seemed to work for a while.  i mentally gave thanks for my friends and family, for wholesome food, for a warm home, etc., and i continued to experience the same friends and family, food, and home as i always had.** Then, one day I looked out into a forest of trees.  i was about to feel grateful for being there with those trees when I Realized that gratitude is separation and separation is not where feeling Good and experiencing Good really Is.*** Separation is a mind-made concept that sees and experiences itself and the world around it as separate: you, me, he, she, it, they, others, etc.  Those identifications are ways that a mind has been conditioned to see and experience a world. That one bit of misinformation, however, is the cause of all seeming pain.  Separation is the feeling that makes a mind think it should be grateful and think it should focus on ways to get more to be grateful for. None of that is true.  Separation is not True. I Am not separate from the One Great Love;  I Am the One Great Love ItSelf. There is nothing to be grateful for because there is nothing else.  There is no other.  There is only Love, only Perfection.  Be this that I Am and Experience unending Bliss.     (Until you are ready for Bliss, a gratitude practice may help some false, separate, sense of you temporarily feel better.  So by all means, carry on if “you” feel like carrying on.  When you are done with separation and a perpetual want for more, Love is Here, no “practices” necessary.)       *(The mind that “i” used to identify with did a gratitude practice of acknowledging things it had been conditioned to believe were good.  The mind, feeling separate, felt incomplete.  Therefore, it felt like it needed more of what it had been conditioned to want.) **(At the time, the mind was looking to a separate, material world for a way to feel right inside.  The mind thought that by acknowledging what it had been conditioned to believe as “good”, it would experience more “good”.  That idea does work.  It’s just that “good” is based on what a mind has been taught to be good which has nothing at all to do with actual Good.) ***(Good, of course, is God/Love/Presence/Oneness.)  ...

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abandoned/abused/neglected: those patterns are not “yours”. (You are Free.)

Posted on Oct 31, 2012 in examples to show the mind that it is not You, how to release mental concepts | 0 comments

abandoned/abused/neglected: those patterns are not “yours”.  (You are Free.)

I know a lot of people who feel sadness over the absence, abuse, or neglect of a parent.  I see how stifling that pain can be.  It is hard to get out of bed in the morning, hard to get motivated to do anything, hard to not see the world as a dark, messed-up, unloving place.  (If that feels like you at times, stay with me through this blog.  By the end, I will show you how to feel the love that you might think is missing.) It does not matter how long ago the painful experience occurred.  To the mind that identifies with that pain-pattern, that pain might as well be happening right now because that is how it feels.  The pain feels alive and real (even though the painful experience is not actually happening right now). There is nothing personal about the pain-pattern.  It does not happen because you are good or bad, lucky or unlucky.  The pain-pattern happens simply because the mind is trained by repetition.  Repetition establishes patterns, seeks those patters until it finds them, and then continues the cycle.  It does not matter how seemingly good or seemingly bad a pattern seems.  To the mind, a pattern is a pattern, nothing more, nothing less. That is how an abused child tends to become an abused adult.  The abuse might not always look the same, but the feeling of being abused is the same to the mind. For example, if a woman was molested as a child, she will find herself in relationships where she “feels” molested.  Feeling molested might look different from when she was a child.  It might look like being taken advantage of, or being unsupported, or being raped, or anything that feels the way molestation felt to the mind however long ago.  Of course the adult woman might not “want” to feel molested repeatedly, it’s just that feeling molested is all the woman can do as long as she identifies with that mental pattern. That pain-pattern is also how a man who was raised without a father tends to become an abandoned adult.  That “abandonment” might not always look the same, but the feeling of being abandoned is the same to the mind. For example, if a man was raised without a father, he will find himself in relationships where he feels abandoned.  Feeling abandoned might look different from when he was a child.  It might look like a lifetime of breakups, or a lifetime of loneliness, or an eating disorder, or anything that feels the way abandonment felt to the mind however long ago.  Of course the adult man might not “want” to feel abandoned repeatedly, it’s just that feeling abandoned is all the man can do as long as he identifies with that mental pattern.   What can the abused woman and abandoned man do about it?   When they are ready to clear the pattern, the pattern clears.  In order to be ready to clear the pattern, they must be more interested in experiencing true Peace than they are placing blame, getting vindicated, or anything else involving “someone else”.  This process is about them experiencing True Peace.  The clarity of what to do about anything/anyone else (if there is anything at all to do) comes only in Peace.  Peace knows exactly what to do all the time. If the molested woman and abandoned man try to “deal” with the seeming problem while feeling victimized, they will just keep participating in the mental pattern and just keep recreating a painful experience.  (In this example, I mean “deal” as in...

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Do “you” ever feel like things are messy?

Posted on Oct 27, 2012 in examples to show the mind that it is not You, how to release mental concepts | 0 comments

Do “you” ever feel like things are messy?

The Real You doesn’t ever feel like things are messy, of course, but if you are not experiencing the Real You then things might sometimes feel messy (even though they never truly are). This morning I woke up and discovered that the balsamic vinegar bottle was tipped upside down and leaking in the food storage bin.  What a mess, balsamic vinegar everywhere!  It was saturating the storage containers, dripping from the salt and pepper, and stain-streaking the bulk supply of zip lock bags. At that moment, it felt like too much to deal with so I left it all messy and stank.  I sat, drank some protein greens, and eventually showered.  By the time I came back from the shower the balsamic vinegar mess didn’t feel like a big deal at all.  I got down on the floor, took everything out, cleaned the bin, and then cleaned everything balsamic-stained. When I realized that I needed to wipe down each and every zip lock bag, I realized that the process was/is like releasing mental concepts.  Here’s how it went for cleaning the bags: As I began, I did not feel like I was the vinegar being wiped away.  I did not feel sad to see it go or happy that it was clearing.  I was simply a neutral, peaceful-feeling cleaner, cleaning. While I wiped, I paid attention to each and every drop of vinegar and wiped each one clean.  (I did not try to multi-task; I did not try to release mental concepts while cleaning vinegar from the bags, for example.  Multi-tasking does not allow me to pay the kind of attention that is necessary for thoroughly cleaning each bag, nor does multi-tasking allow for the kind of attention that is necessary while concepts release.  So instead of multi-tasking, I paid attention to what was happening while it was happening.) I did not impatiently wipe the whole bunch of bags at once because that would inevitably leave some bags stained and the whole bunch slightly sticky with a vinegar-esque quality. I set up some paper towels, grabbed one bag at a time, and wiped.  Then I wiped the next one, and the next one, and the next one, until every bag was clean. Once each bag was wiped, each bag was as good as new.  (It would have been a waste to throw away all those bags because underneath all that smelly vinegar, the bags were in perfect condition.) Here’s how it goes for releasing mental concepts: To begin, Realize that You are not the concepts being cleared.  You are simply the neutral, Peaceful, Presence, Being Peace while concepts release.  While releasing concepts, pay attention to each concept while it is being released.  (Trying to multi-task, trying to clean the house while trying to release concepts, for example, does not allow concepts the kind of attention necessary to fully release.  Instead, pay undivided attention to each concept while it is releasing.) Patiently, Loving, tend to one concept at a time.  Trying to release multiple concepts at once may make things seem “clearer”, but that process does not entirely Clear a concept.  (If the process feels impatient, stop “trying”.  Release happens easily and patiently when it is time.) Be with one concept.  Feel the Love and Peace of Being what Is while mentally observing the concept dissolve.  Talk the concept through if it is helpful, “You are free to be what you are, whatever that is, however that is.  You are no longer a mental possession.  You are free.”  Wait.  Mentally observe the concept soften, relax, and let go.  Wait until it is...

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Why clearing the mind Is the answer

Posted on Oct 18, 2012 in examples to show the mind that it is not You, how to release mental concepts | 2 comments

Why clearing the mind Is the answer

Clearing the mind is the Absolute answer. Changing the mind is the “relative” answer.   The Absolute experiences the absolution of ItSelf, which is Perfection. The “relative” experiences the relativity of “separates” (a life experience separate from the True Self, separate from “others”, separate from “things”), which feels like stress.   The Absolute ONLY experiences the Perfection whereas the “relative” ONLY experiences the seeming stress (seeming because the relative experience is an illusory experience despite how real it may sometimes feel).   How is the Absolute Perfection experienced? In an empty mind; a mind free of a sense of separation, free of conditioned mental concepts, free of beliefs.   How is relative stress experienced? In identification with a mind, in identification with separation, conditioned mental concepts, and beliefs.   When you are ready to let go of a separate, false-sense of “me” then the answer is in the Emptiness. If you are more interested in improving relative conditions then the answer will appear to be in relativity.  Relativity will never, ever, ever, lead you to experience the peace it seeks, however, simply because Peace is not in relativity.  Peace IS the Absolute.   Mentally “knowing” this is not enough to experience It.  (Intellectualizing is not the same as Experiencing.) So, now the mind might “know” that it is an illusion.  It might also “know” that the ultimate answer is experienced when the mind is clear of all that “knowing”.  Now what? Now, if you are interested in not knowing, you sit.  You wait.  You notice the mind’s patterns and you do not engage.   A mental concept shows up and you see where it came from, you see how it developed, how it came to be such a seemingly normal thing to experience.  The concept is simply a learned condition, a learned behavior, a learned belief; it is not a Real thing. While You observe the mental concept, You realize that the concept has nothing to do with You at all.  It is simply acting out its learned behavior while You watch. With space from what used to feel like “you” and “yours” it is easy to not feel bothered by whatever comes up because there is space between You and what the mind thinks “you” is.  Things that used to offend you no longer do because You realize that the one feeling offended is not You.  The pressure is gone in This space.  You are simply noticing the mind and its conditioning, that’s all. There is nothing scary happening here.  Anything that initially seems scary seems scary because it has been conditioned to be thought of that way.  Wait, the seeming scariness will pass also.  It is just as unreal as everything else of the mind. Eventually, all of the mind’s noise settles and dissolves.  The past is clear.  Now is free to be experienced as it truly Is. Perfection is at hand. Love is Here. You (the Real, Absolute, You) Are the living Answer.      ...

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