Yoga Is what Love Is, there is no separation.

Posted on May 12, 2013 in examples to show the mind that it is not You, traps | 0 comments

Yoga Is what Love Is, there is no separation.

I taught a yoga class yesterday for the first time in a long while and it is still wonderful.  The movement is fun and the stretching is nice but it is the Yoga that is truly wonderful. When I was first introduced to yoga over 12 years ago, I was told that “yoga” meant “union” – union with the True Self, which was advertised as a very peaceful state.  Twelve years ago, when I wasn’t feeling very peaceful, union sounded good.  (Now I see how “union” is a trap, but I’ll get to that.) For years, I studied the history of yoga, learned the series of poses, learned the Sanskrit names of poses, ate a vegetarian diet, wore all white when required, chanted, retreated, sat for hours, held my arms over my head for 62 minutes at a time – you name it, I tried it, “yogic-ly” speaking. My body definitely got stronger and more flexible throughout that time.  My mind even became more disciplined and knowledgeable.  I did not, however, experience any real increase in overall peace until years later (and the truly peaceful experience had nothing to do with “yoga”). Sure, there were euphoric moments along the yogic journey, but that was because of breath manipulation, not because of the Realization of Oneness.  There were increased feelings of openness and adaptability, but not Bliss – not until years later. Years after doing everything that I had been taught to do by yoga teachers and yoga “masters”, I was still easily upset, still bothered by a world I thought was real, still feeling very separate from every-seeming-thing and every-seeming-one, including the True Self. The reason that “yoga” did not help me experience true Peace was simply because I thought that I was separate from the thing that I was trying to unify with.  I thought I was the mind and all of its thinking.  I thought I was the thoughts and the beliefs.  I thought that I needed to become something instead of Realize that I already Am what the mind was seeking. When I finally Realized that yoga was not working as a means to experiencing True Peace, I let go of it.  At the time, letting go of yoga felt like a hard break-up; I did not want to let it go but it was so obviously not working.  It seemed that my whole life had become all things yoga.  My friends, my social-scene, the food I ate, the clothes I wore, the music I listened to – everything in my life at the time had something to do with a very commercial idea of yoga, so letting go of yoga felt like letting go of “me”. It was definitely worth releasing.  I felt so discontent with life at the time, particularly after having spent years doing things I thought would eventually lead to Peace.  I was willing to try anything, even if that included letting go of what I thought I was. Once the mental concepts of “yoga” cleared, I was able to experience the Emptiness, the actual Yoga.  I had read about the Emptiness but I only experienced the Emptiness when I was no longer trying to understand It, or get to It. From Emptiness, everything is clear.  There is no separation.  There is only this Everything-ness and Nothing-ness that is Peace.  There is no need for a concept like “union” because there is nothing to unify with; I already Am. I released the concept of yoga years ago and now let the experience of a yoga class be whatever it is.  I no...

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i surrender

Posted on Feb 15, 2013 in examples to show the mind that it is not You, traps | 0 comments

i surrender

A number of years ago, “my” mind thought it wanted things on its birthday.  It thought that there should be cake and presents, a day at the spa and dinner reservations.  When it didn’t get those things for the first time ever in its life experience, it got upset. The mind thought that being upset might help it get what it wanted, which was to be treated like it was special and deserved a special day of special gifts and special treatment.  When being upset didn’t help the mind get what it wanted for the first time ever in its life experience, it got even more upset and when that didn’t work, the mind eventually was left without options for how to behave so it quieted and calmed down. In the space without the mind acting all childlike for attention, I could clearly see what was happening.  I could see that the mind was simply expressing its conditioning.  It was acting out in the ways it had been taught to act by patterns.  It had been given cake and presents every year since it was one.  It had learned to feel upset when it didn’t get what it thought it wanted. Through repetition, the mind picked up patterns and it was simply looking for those patterns to continue.  There was nothing more than that happening.  Because the mind was simply trippin’ over not getting a pattern fulfilled there was nothing to do externally in order to feel right again.  Basically, getting cake or getting presents, a day at the spa or dinner reservations was not the answer to feeling right again.  The answer to feeling right was/is clearing the patterns and experiencing the perfection of life without patterns. During that particular pattern interruption, I realized that I was being treated wonderfully by a wonderfully loving man every single day.  I ate cake whenever I felt like eating cake and I actually went to the spa a lot during that time (there was a great spot in LA where I could soak, steam, sip tea, and relax for $15 a day!).  I was realizing that the mind was trippin’ over patterns but the mind and its patterns had nothing to do with Me.  I was not, and am not, the mind and its patterns.  I am the Empty Mind, the Peace, the Perfection, the Love Itself. So instead of getting what the mind thought it wanted that year, it got what it needed – humility. Today, as every day, i surrender.  i let go of all false-sense of separation.  i let everything be itself, however that is.  i know nothing.  i am nothing.  i is an illusion; it is free. Love is Here in the Emptiness. i happily surrender.  ...

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feeling bothered is a trap (when you don’t engage it, you don’t feel bothered).

Posted on Nov 16, 2012 in examples to show the mind that it is not You, traps | 0 comments

feeling bothered is a trap (when you don’t engage it, you don’t feel bothered).

You can’t trust feeling bothered because that feeling will tell you that the reason you are feeling bothered is because of what you are looking at (what you are thinking about), which is not true. This is why feeling bothered is a trap; it will try to get you to engage the mind when the answer it seeks is not of the mind. Feeling bothered will then have you try to get some thing or some one to change, while feeling bothered until something changes (and then continuing to feel bothered by something else). Instead of participating in that endless cycle of feeling bothered, recognize that the bothered feeling is simply an indication of not feeling right inside, and not feeling right inside is an indication of identifying with the mind and its mental concepts.  (The True Self doesn’t ever feel bothered.  It only feels the Perfection of ItSelf.)   If you feel like you need to test this out, try this: Imagine something that you feel bothered by. Now imagine not feeling bothered by it.   Which one feels better, more like You?   Notice that nothing “in the world” changed while you imagined both scenarios and yet you experienced a feeling change.   The mind’s likely conclusion from that example is to “be the change it seeks.”  (That conclusion is also a trap because the thing that feels like something needs to change is not You, is not Real, and will never be able to experience the Peace that You truly Are.) What this exercise is pointing out is that the bothered feeling is “relative”.  It is dependent on mental conditions.  If you don’t identify with those mental conditions, if you don’t treat them like they are real, or you, or yours, then they lose their seeming weight.   As your attention leaves the “relative” and rests as the Absolute, you can no longer even remember what feeling bothered felt like, because You are now experiencing the Sweet, Complete, Unbotherable, Bliss that is You.                ...

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the thing about gratitude…

Posted on Nov 4, 2012 in examples to show the mind that it is not You, traps | 0 comments

the thing about gratitude…

i used to do a gratitude practice of acknowledging things i was grateful for so that i could feel “good” and have more “good” in my life.* It seemed to work for a while.  i mentally gave thanks for my friends and family, for wholesome food, for a warm home, etc., and i continued to experience the same friends and family, food, and home as i always had.** Then, one day I looked out into a forest of trees.  i was about to feel grateful for being there with those trees when I Realized that gratitude is separation and separation is not where feeling Good and experiencing Good really Is.*** Separation is a mind-made concept that sees and experiences itself and the world around it as separate: you, me, he, she, it, they, others, etc.  Those identifications are ways that a mind has been conditioned to see and experience a world. That one bit of misinformation, however, is the cause of all seeming pain.  Separation is the feeling that makes a mind think it should be grateful and think it should focus on ways to get more to be grateful for. None of that is true.  Separation is not True. I Am not separate from the One Great Love;  I Am the One Great Love ItSelf. There is nothing to be grateful for because there is nothing else.  There is no other.  There is only Love, only Perfection.  Be this that I Am and Experience unending Bliss.     (Until you are ready for Bliss, a gratitude practice may help some false, separate, sense of you temporarily feel better.  So by all means, carry on if “you” feel like carrying on.  When you are done with separation and a perpetual want for more, Love is Here, no “practices” necessary.)       *(The mind that “i” used to identify with did a gratitude practice of acknowledging things it had been conditioned to believe were good.  The mind, feeling separate, felt incomplete.  Therefore, it felt like it needed more of what it had been conditioned to want.) **(At the time, the mind was looking to a separate, material world for a way to feel right inside.  The mind thought that by acknowledging what it had been conditioned to believe as “good”, it would experience more “good”.  That idea does work.  It’s just that “good” is based on what a mind has been taught to be good which has nothing at all to do with actual Good.) ***(Good, of course, is God/Love/Presence/Oneness.)  ...

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